Fragility

It has been such a while since I have written a non-recipe blog. This is due to a couple of reasons. Firstly due to severe pneumonia at the start of the year, I finally recovered from that and then we were all hit with the thing that changed everyone’s lives, the Coronavirus.

Like so many, I am classed as vulnerable, this meant that I have to isolate for at least 12 weeks. To be honest this spun me out completely. I suffer from anxiety, depression, and OCD so it really did take a while to get my head straight. I expect I am not alone there. Apart from recipes, I was afraid of blogging about what seems like insignificant and in the greater scheme of things non-important subjects

My OCD has gone into overdrive, but understandable I suppose. We are still confused about how long virus these particles remain on different surfaces. I seem to be constantly wiping things down, from surfaces, parcels, shopping to switches. We are bombarded throughout the day with heart-wrenching stories.We are told to keep apart from the friends and family those of who provide us with strength and love in our normal lives. A hug is such a simple and important thing but it conveys so many complex feelings and reassurances in our normal life. I miss that. 

I don’t want this to be a blog about just the coronavirus and the heartache and pain it has blanketed the world with.

The other day something clicked with me and I then realised how important this blog is to me and why I started it in the first place. It is essential to me for my mental health in so many ways, and maybe this and my Facebook page will be something others can still enjoy. So for now I will carry on blogging and writing recipes and that is good enough for me at the moment.

The sun is shining here, it feels like it shouldn’t be and it feels unnatural to stay indoors. I am appreciating our time allowed out and the chance to get some much needed vitamin D

We use that time for exercise for ourselves and our dogs Belle and her brother Bear. Belle is a lab x shepherd and is five in December and Bear is a Belgian shepherd and coming up for three, same mum but different dad.

Being disabled they are my world and constant companions, even more so now if that is possible because of social distancing and important isolation. So it is lovely to still be able to enjoy the sun with them and see the joy on their faces.

Also, my cat Olivia has returned home after being missing for three months. We had just about giving up on finding her. She is twelve years old and we have had her from six weeks old. Such a relief.

I think this situation has made me realise a few things

• I am so lucky compared to others in some parts of the world
•  Appreciation of simple things in life.
• How fragile life can be
• In most cases how in adversity people come out fighting

Amazing people are doing amazing things to help those who need it, key workers are carrying on and holding us up.

My heart goes out to all who have lost a loved one to the virus.

Stay safe and stay inside if you can.

 

 Karran x